It has been longer then a month I haven't been here.
When I opened the blog and loged on, I saw something new here - Statistics. I opened it. And the things I saw surprised me... I saw what countries reads my blog, and how many people. I was literally shocked... I never even thought about other people reading this shit I write. What's to talk about that they're from other countries....

Thanks.

So I started reading my old items... I felt weird... I can't understand how it's possible that I wrote all that... I mean, I know I just sad down, turned on my PC and wrote... But I can't figure out how all that happend.... Well. Never mind....

I got a hair cut. A really new one this time. It's two months I'm with it... And now I actually smile when I see myself in the mirror... Everyone likes it. SO, that's a good thing in my life...

I like someone... Don't worry, HE's a guy. He's nothing I've ever seen before.... Just different... The best thing about him, without his body, wich if I may is just hot, he's talking to me. But I like him just like I do with Argon. He's like a bro to me, I never had... Maybe no. He's something different. He has that something I don't and 'vise versa'. I even get bored spending time on my own, even more bored then usual... He's that somebody who can set me in motion, make me move, make me actually do something... Maybe he's what I was missing in my life all this time... I wish he is. But guess I'll just have to enjoy the fact that he exists... I think I can live with that... I mean, I can't make him to be with me and help me with my problems if he doesn't want to, and I'm 100% sure he doesn't, so I'll just have to be happy he's on the face of the Earth... He makes me laugh, we understand things, think sometimes almost alike, same age, and he's complitely not like me. He talks to me, messes with me and etc. but I still can't understand what is all that. Boredom? He's feeling sad for me? Just giving me attention? What? Flirt? Yeah right, like that will ever happen... Wish I could have his experience in all this...

I can't understand where is my head? Up in the coulds? Rolling down the hill? Running away from me? Driving safely and sending me 'xo'? Or is stuck in reality? Hek, I don't have a clue. Last night I came up that I want a guitar...

My items are getting shorter and shorter... I've GOT to fix this...

' - Says WHO ? - asks Sanity.
- Says She ! - says Brain.
- She? Oh really? Well, there's something you don't see every day while being stuck all your time inside HERE ! '

Oh, I've just remembered, few people told me today I should be a writer, but I don't think I could... Though I appreciate those words, but... I'll think about it...

Yeasterday I saw 'The Mummy', not the first time of course, but I enjoyed watching it.
Few weeks ago I spoke out loud how I (how I would feel of course) if I had a Boyfriend. To myself I spoke of course... I spend about an hour blabbering about my feelings around him, when he's with me, how I would feel in one or another situation with him and stuff like that, well you know. And yesterday after the movie I thought about what is true love for me. And I realised that there can't be anything more romantic than a Man risking his life to save a Woman he loves so he could hold her in his arms just one more time, just to feel the heat of her body and her hot lips on him one more time even if they won't survive to share their lifes for eternety... I realised how I would like to live in a movie, to go on an adventure, fight, seek danger, experience life... Love. Even just for a day I wish I could be at the times when the tombs where robbed, places discovered, secrets revealed, when there was even a small chance facing death itself and escaping... I'm so gullible you have no idea... I always imagend I was a worrior, sorcerer, fighter, that I can call the Spirits and talk to them, that I can shoot fire from my palms, lazer from eyes, that I'm faster then the light itself, all kind of stuff like that. I still do. I just can't help myself, I just need to day-dream... I know I know it's bad. So is drugs, cigarettes and alcohol. But I like it. It helps me to forget about the reality, the bad , the boredom, the worries I have and so much more... Though it's dragging me down, just like drugs. Honestly I confess. I , TEJA, AM AN ADICCT. Because I'm adiccted to too many things. Music. Dreams. Air. Water. Fire. Earth. Wind. Snow. Stars. Sky. Clouds. Laugh. Talks. People. Feelings...

' - 'And so many more...' How we are proud of you, ya over grown, lazy, useless ...
- ENOUGH!! - shouts Brain on Sanity.- I'm not listening to this crap...
- OH yeah?! - shrieks Sanity not letting Brain to finish,- Well it's not my fault if you don't want to listen to The Truth, even if it's more sour then a bucket of fresh squeezed lemons on a hot day of July !
- It's not truth, it's just something to make you feel better about yourself, because you can't except the fact that you're APART of US.
- Well I ... - sat Sanity in the Dark speechless watching Brain flow away slowly in to the Mist...