If you could see The Moon now..
It's so tempting me to howl....

I know I'm objecting myself but, what can I say - at least it keeps me busy... - I wish I could share this feeling with somebody next beside me... Would be funny seeing the looks of him when I start to howl ... What would anyone say then?...

Guess it just going to stay that way... You all know it's not happening...



xoxo Y.G.

I must be crazy...

What's the difference between falling inlove and to love?
Easy - falling inlove is much easier and less lasting. But to love someone, is quite more difficult and takes more time.

"People do crazy things when they're inlove" - true.

Psychologist says - admiration for somebody can last till eight months. The Object will be everything you'll think, see, feel, and hear... For eight months you won't know anything else except that The Object is everything to you. In the 9th month it will strat to fade untill you're thinking clearly again. After that there's a bigger chance, that the person will snap out of it and forget about The Object, wich probably be a good thing.

Now I understand what was going on back then, when I was still talking with somebody...

And Now I know what might be going on.
And like times before it will pass till summer...

It's the way how it goes with me. Everytime it's the same...

So why am I scared?

Everything's better than ever. Maybe it's just too good to be true?... Could be. But I don't know. I never do... So far - so good. But still there's something not right... Guys are kinda good to me - that's stranger than strange to me, 'cuz I'm not use to it... Addults are saying good things about me - that's also new for me... Maybe I'm just scared of the fact, that people can tread me better than I'm use to or it's just all in my head. That wouldn't be a surprise...

Sweet Blue Sky - what's wrong with me?...

Don't tell me THAT'S happening again... No... Anything but THAT... Well if this is it, it's a good thing it passes fast... It did one, 5, nine, TEN times before and it will again ! That's what always happens, this time ain't no different. Oh, and since everything goes bad for me, I don't have what to worry about anyway... Greeeeaaaat #sarcasm#.....

One more thing - why do I have the feeling, that some guys like me? Personaly I don't mind, that they don't tease me, well much... But they don't have to make it look like this... It's confusing me...
Sometimes it looks like he doesn't know I'm there and next time when I get his look - it's kinda weird, sames, that he's even been waiting...
Sometimes it sames that the other one just can't look anywhere else just... Seems that I'm everything he sees.. Next - one day "we're ok", other - I'm the laughing-stock... Or how do you like this - absolutely no intrest for almost two months and suddenly somebody says something to me.... Or even better - since the start giving me attention...
I'm seriously not cool with this... How am I suppose to know anything?....

Lets just hope I'm imaging everything as always and forget everything I wrote here...


Thank You and Good Night !
Dulces suaños...

xoxo YourGirl

00:00 - Wish It Could Freeze That Way ;]

Sometimes you feel down.
Sometimes you feel great.
Sometimes you feel sad.
Sometimes you feel happy.
Sometimes you feel stranger.
Sometimes you feel crazy.
Sometimes you feel stupid.
Sometimes you feel crushed.
Sometimes you feel hate.
Sometimes you feel 'lone.
Sometimes you feel fun.
Sometimes you feel lost.
Sometimes you feel angry.
Sometimes you feel excited.
Sometimes you feel good.
Sometimes you feel insain.
Sometimes you feel blue.
Sometimes you feel blues.
Sometimes you feel the power.
Sometimes you feel like you're the power.
Sometimes you feel weird.
Sometimes you feel like.
Sometimes you feel meaning.
Sometimes you feel like you're the meaning.
Sometimes you feel right.
Sometimes you feel wrong.
Sometimes you feel sound.
Sometimes you feel view.
Sometimes you feel touch.
Sometimes you feel punch.
Sometimes you feel pain.
Sometimes you feel thrill.
Sometimes you feel cold.
Sometimes you feel hot.
Sometimes you feel chill.
Sometimes you feel the heart.
Sometimes you feel the soul.
Sometimes you feel the mind.
Sometimes you feel like you're the one.
Sometimes you feel like you're just one.
Sometimes you feel what is inside.
Sometimes you feel what is outside.
Sometimes you feel that something else.
Sometimes you feel yourself.
Sometimes you feel the game.
Sometimes you feel the rules.
Sometimes you feel the break.
Sometimes you feel the work.
Sometimes you feel everything.
Sometimes you feel nothing.
Sometimes you feel day.
Sometimes you feel night.
Sometimes you feel dark.
Sometimes you feel light.
Sometimes you feel dream.
Sometimes you feel sleep.
Sometimes you feel sun.
Sometimes you feel snow.
Sometimes you feel Fall.
Sometimes you feel Spring.
Sometimes you feel new.
Sometimes you feel old.
Sometimes you feel parts.
Sometimes you feel art.
Sometimes you feel caught.
Sometimes you feel thoughts.
Sometimes you feel wind.
Sometimes you feel text.
Sometimes you feel next.
Sometimes you feel on.
Sometimes you feel off.
Sometimes you feel go.
Sometimes you feel stop.
Sometimes you feel walk.
Sometimes you feel run.
Sometimes you feel thirst.
Sometimes you feel burn.
Sometimes you feel air.
Sometimes you feel water.
Sometimes you feel empty.
Sometimes you feel full.
Sometimes you feel hurt.
Sometimes you feel safe.
Sometimes you feel needed.
Sometimes you feel need.
Sometimes you feel free.
Sometimes you feel chained.
Sometimes you feel shine.
Sometimes you feel shy.
Sometimes you feel the beat.
Sometimes you feel like you're beat.
Sometimes you feel lightning.
Sometimes you feel thunder.
Sometimes you feel rain.
Sometimes you feel storm.
Sometimes you feel calm.
Sometimes you feel lake.
Sometimes you feel late.
Sometimes you feel brave.
Sometimes you feel smart.
Sometimes you feel wit.
Sometimes you feel color.
Sometimes you feel life.
Sometimes you feel time.
Sometimes you feel fly.
Sometimes you feel cry.
Sometimes you feel shout.
Sometimes you feel shoot.
Sometimes you feel tank.
Sometimes you feel blanck.
Sometimes you feel help.
Sometimes you feel hell.
Sometimes you feel gental.
Sometimes you feel ruff.
Sometimes you feel silent.
Sometimes you feel talk.
Sometimes you feel fear.
Sometimes you feel luck.
Sometimes you feel dumb.
Sometimes you feel blind.
Sometimes you feel deaf.
Sometimes you feel weak.
Sometimes you feel stong.
Sometimes you feel alive.
Sometimes you feel dead.
Sometimes you feel tired.
Sometimes you feel sick.
Sometimes you feel ill.
Sometimes you feel clear.
Sometimes you feel left.
Sometimes you feel liked.
Sometimes you feel loved.
Sometimes you feel to just feel...

It's Official - I'm Šiaulia since todays Art class.... What an exciting attraction I was today... Hard to believe it.... I feel like I'm some sort of a #1 star here.... This is stupid, 'cause I feel stupid... I can't get what's happening.... This is something .... Wow.... I just hope I got everything right and they really liked me, and all that wasn't just messing around with me... That would be unbearable... I couldn't stand that....
So, let's hope this was okey in the good way.....

I had fun today, you? ;D

I want to cry... I'm bored of living, being on my own, alone... I'm so tired of it... But the thing is - this won't change, 'cause I don't let anyone be near me....
I'm an idiot - that's a fact. Nothing in the world can deny it.

Guess I just have to live with that... Just like before...

10.10.10

That's something.

I'm loosing my thoughts. I'm seriously going to start carrying a notebook with me in one of my hands and write every single one of it, when it comes to me.

While walking today it came to me - how different I feel. Better. In many ways.... Maybe This Is It. That Something what was missing all this time... Maybe now I really have what it takes to turn part of my life round.... Don't know... Don't want to actaully... I never know what I want and what I don't want. And it's anoying.

Have you ever had a feeling like you are like an Amusement Park? You know? Like you are some kinda entertainment or something? I have. I'm having. Sometimes I feel like I'm an attraction to the guys here. I do realise that, our town ain't the best place to crash and hang out, but why do they have to make me feel like I'm a new exhibit in a museum... I know maybe they have some questions they'd like to ask, but you don't have to tread me like a creature you see for the first and last time in your life... But on the other hand... It's kinda fun...

Okey.. So it's ten minutes after eleven in the evening on Sunday... Great...

I just hope everything won't go down for me...