He saw me!!! I can't believe he was almost right next to me and I didn't see him... Aaaaahhh.... Why I'm so blind?.. ;DDD



xoxo Your Girl ;* ;P ;D

Peace and quiet

Is that too much to ask? For me. Yes. Wanna experience true hell? Try my life on for size...

Next news. I've been to the big M... Quite a nice place they got there... Unfortunately my preformance wasn't the one, to leave a good impretion...

Furthermore... I don't like some parts of my life that are happening...

Guess I should've got use to it by now...

Don't you just hate when one second people are nice to you and the next they're like the devil himself?

Firsts day

Tasks almost complited ! Yeeeeeaaaayyyy for me ;P ;DDDD I've done my exercise, HW as well, all that's left is PC and GG ;P

Oh, I also thought about writing every evening before falling a sleep a letter, to myself, so that when the alarm goes on in the morning, the second thing (after turning the alarm off) I'll do - read it. The whole idea is for me to remind myself what I'm doing, so that I would not forget. I don't know if it's stupid or clever, but so far it's working, considering, that today is the first day of everything ;DDD

I think I'll do a calendar for the training, it will be easier that way, so, I think I'll get on it right now, so there would be more time for something more .... ;] ;P


See ya, xoxo Your Girl ;* ;P ;DD

Something

I was planing to do today ... Riiiight.. Write what I'll DO and DON'T DO starting tomorrow, well... It's not working, cause it's twenty two hundret in a half hours and I even haven't started... Boy am I something... ;DDD Something for not doing what I suppose to do, lieing around, doing noting... Yeah, that's me...

See ya, xoxo YourGirl ;* ;P ;DD

Recently

The most time I've been trying to say the first thing that comes to my mind. But with this came the fast talking and no understanding express...

Several days ago I was walking (I wouldn't call it that way) my dog in the rain. Actually I was just standing infront of my apartment while my dog walked himself ;DD, any way... While the rain drops were falling on me I had a thought, that maybe the Sky really understands me, it's stupid, I know. But it's just that, on that evening - cloudy, rainy, full of mist... In my mind was going exactly the same. So I thought that maybe Magic can happen. I noticed this change of wheater when I wasn't feeling good days ago. So I have a request. Magic. If you're out there, anywhere. Help me. Please.

The next thing is that I think, I finally understand the saying "Sometimes It just takes a little to fell happy". Having a haircut really made my happy. I fell like I completely found myself. This new look was all I needed to fell more free and less complicated. Atleast something can work out for me ;DD... Also, reading, that someone is actually glad receiving a text from me, makes a difference to ;]...

But still. My quest continues. The legendary Search of a person, that would like to chat with my 24/7 is still not work so good as I thought in the first place it would be.

Next. This "Gossip girl" gig is, literally, getting into my head. Once again I'm daydreaming of the things that aren't going to happen even if I paid everyone to do it. So basicly I'm back where I started.

I'm so hopeless.

" - Yet again, so what.
- Says the All-knowing Sanity - finishes Brain.
- It's so funny, I forgot to laugh
- I sure haven't. "

May 1st.

Tweny two hundret hours
It's been a while since the last time I've wrote in here... And as much as I don't like saying that, but my life haven't change much ;DDDD But it's OK. Cause, I'm used to it. I'm mean, it's not like every day happens something exciting to my or even something new. But I'm cool with that. Really. It get's borring of course, eventually... But this is not the reason I'm writing... Actually I forgot why I'm writing ;DDD I forgot everything I wanned to write ;DD .... Uh. I got it! ;DDD One night I thought that I might could start writing lyrics... Just for fun... You know, when I feel like doing it. First thing that comes to my mind...

I'll try to start living in a bit more free way... Having fun more often...

Uh. I'm going to have a haircut next week ;DDD And my friends are coming next weekend , I hope they're still coming ;D

Well. Guess that's it for now. See you soon ;]
xo Night Girl ;DDDDDDD It's catcy, "xo Gossip Girl" ;DDDD