What, you think it's funny ?

Well I don't think so. You're mocking me here, and it's getting really boring !!! Why in the name what all is pure you're doing this to me ?... What ? I'm not good enough for ya ? Huh ? Is that the reason ?... Well guess what ! I'm not planing to change. Yeah, you got that right. What ? Not good ? I DON'T CARE !!! Just like you don't about me, I don't about you. You know why ? I think you wanna know. Well it's because you're not helping me at all. You're just making everything worse, like I need that ! What, you think it's a coincidence that exactly today I watched situations with fathers and their kids? First that so called teen-heroes "the Simpsons" - Homer makes a bet against Lisa, and he wins. Lisa finds out and gets angry with him. Then, she decides that she doesn't have a father anymore, and changes her name from Lisa Simpson to Lisa Bouvier [if I remember right]. What do you know. Homer get's upset and finds a way to apologize. I'm thinking. Even an idiot like this cartoon character is created like a person, father, who cares about his kid. Next tought. If even Homer can apologize, and do someting usefull for his daughter. Why can't my father [I can't believe I'm saying this] be more like Homer, in this situation ?... Second. I'm surfing trough the channels and I stop at an animated film "The Wild". Once again I'm facing this "father son" times, where daddy tries everything to save his little boy. One thing I can't get. How come every single time when I'm seeing something like it, I'm always getting upset... I mean. I know it's just a movie, a film, a cartoon... But it just hurts me so much when I see what fathers can do for their children... I never knew what it's like to have a father. But I would really like that... Unfortunetly for me it's impossible like the french would say. I never had. And I never will.
But what hurts me here the most. Is that name change. If Lisa could, why can't I ? My mom always said "you and me, and the dog #laughing#, we are one family"... So if we're one family, why I need to be Salytė if she's Meškaitė and I also want to be Meškaitė. Why ? Just because she says so ? It's always been that way. I'm tired of it. It's not fair. Removing this block would make me happier. I can't get why she doesn't understand this ? It's not hard. Is it ?...

" - Well, what do you think miss "Know it all" ? - asks Brain Sanity. - Is it?...
- Ofcourse... It's... Not... I think. - answers she with doubt in her voice. - But on the other hand...
- Oh, don't you start again !! - shrieks the Heart, for the first time so hard. - It's not so hard to understand. She's just like a child, doesn't want to hear anything more. "No" and final. - wisely speaks Heart.
- Yes, we all know that. - shows herself the Conscience. - It just takes a little bit time, that's all.
- Well time is something we ain't got, - speaks his mind Brain, - if we'll wait a bit longer she'll turn eighteen, and it will be over after that for good. But we want, we need this NOW ! "