Here at last.

Funny. But I kinda missed this place. Ironic, don't you think? Cause I abandoned my diary long time ago... The reason I'm back is that, suddenly I felt like writing into my notebook on a piece of paper with a pen. While writing I haven't noticed that I'm writing lines, like real lines. Something like a poem, I don't know. I just felt like writing like that - lines. And I felt real good when I ended. These are second lines, I wrote yesterday.

Shining trough the trees
Is the silver moon
At the darkest night
Above us too
Let us stay
Let us feel
All that magic here
Or other way we’ll
Just go away
Into the deepest
Shadow that
Cruel world is called
But maybe we’ll get lost
Wondering about it
Or maybe we’ll get caught
Just for being there
But what I’m saying
You are staying
I am leaving
Cause this is not the chance
It’s not my life
It is just a dream I like to live
But I don’t have the time
Reality is killing me
My mind is weak
My heart is beat
I’m so confused
I can not tell
I need someone
To help me live
Just a friend
That I can trust
The real friend
Who would not judge
I’m sinking in my thoughts
I’m losing all that what is called my soul
I don’t know where to go
I don’t know what to do
I don’t need a lover just a friend
A thing I can call my best adviser
Stop
I’m lying
I need a friend
And lover too
But that’s too much to ask
Cause friend you can trust
Is that lover you can love
Without the fear of losing it
Or is it the other way around
The lover you love
Is that friend you can trust
Without the fear of losing it
No
It’s not the other way around
It’s the first way
First a friend then a lover
If you work it out in the right way
But if not
Well
Then his just a Friend
Wish I could have him
I know my wish is huge
It’s what I do
I dream and dream
I never stop
I think I’m lost
But I’m not
My God I don’t know what I’m writing here
Over and over again
I’m saying the same
Guess I’m crazier
Then thought I was
Hey
That’s what happens
When you’re sixteen
And alone
Talking with walls
Staring at the ceiling
Can get you out of your mind
Trust me on that one
Guess I’ll better go
Before I start again
I started with the silver shining moon
And ending with the sorrow of my soul

I think it's a keeper ;] See ya around ;]

" - Yet again you prove, that you're an idiot! - says the Sanity.
- Oh would you just shut that pie hole you call mouth?! - answers Brain.- It's already hard enough without you, ok? - tells he with one breath, and silently flows away into the darkness of the Mind. My Mind"