Would it be selfish to say : "I found Love"...? I think not. I did find Love and I'm happy... More than that - I'm actaully glad to be alive... To feel... To know.. He makes me feel alive and worth something.... Everything I ever dreamed of is coming true... The way He puts his arms around me from behind while I'm cooking... The way He looks down at me... The way He breaths after we kiss... The way He gives me a hug just because He wants to.... The way He makes me smile... The way He tells me : "I Love You".... The way He touches me.. Gently.. Softly.. Feels like a butterfly is landing on my skin as gently and peacefully as it can... The way His fingers goes up and down my legs, sides, back.... The way His hot lips feel on my lips and body... The way we cuddle and snuggle before falling asleep with His hands wraped around me and His palms in mine... The way He smiles when He sees me coming His way... The way He tells me I look beautiful.... The texts I get... The attention.... The way He's changing me... All this and much more - from one person.... Unbelievable? Believe it. I mean.. Sure, it's still hard for me to realise that this is happening to me, but I'm getting use to it.. I'm really enjoying our moments even those when we fight... Usually of something I said... But hey, that's me - I'm used to saying stupid, like really stupid stuff.... But it doesn't matter how much I think I can't change... I want Him more.... I'll try my best to make the bad things go away... Because it's Love From The First Feel.... It's just too bad I sound more rational and sensible here.. Where all my writings are then when I actually talk... This will have to change... Somehow... I start realising that all what I ever wanted: a tall, dark, handsome, funny, smart, clever, sharp, big, strong guy, who makes me laugh, understands me, thinks I'm not just beautiful but hot and sexy too, who knows what to say to make me feel better or helps me realise how big of a fool I make out of myself by saying something stupid, who would want to help me change all those fears and complexes into something different, something better - is Him. The guy who despite my all warnings, problems and issues still wants to be with me - is Him. He is The One from my dreams... Plus He plays the sax, soooo I basically was inlove with Him the second He told me he plays the sax.... But it took me a long time to finally feel IT and say to Him : "I Love You"... And everytime he tells me that or I say it to him.... My heart just starts beeding, I feel butterflies in my stomach, a weird, but good feeling comes to my chest... And I never felt that way before... So. When you're not sure what you're feeling, it's probably something new... And one evening I thought about Him, I felt all of the "symptoms".... And that was the moment I got it... "This is It"... I have no other explanation and I don't need one.... I'm loved. And I have someone to love. That's all I need to know now... ;]